Projecting

So I'm learning to calm myself.
I'm learning NOT to project sad/mad feelings towards something neutral.
When i think about it, if someone had told me this before, I probably would have done all in my power to work on stopping this bad habit. It's because of it, I lost the one person most important to me (lost having a loose definition).

It's a little late to be trying this, but I figure I need to do something good for myself and for others including my family. I'm thinking of having more visitors come over and see me more often so that I'd be happy here at home. I learned I project feelings towards home, thus never wanting to be home. I want to desensitize being sad at home, so I want visitors.

WTF.


This is horrible. That sounds so dependent. UGH. I'm going crazy.