arrrgh-ticles

digg. It's not a secret, but for those of you who haven't heard of it, it's a great site to read up on some interesting articles. I love it. Gives me something to do at work.

Here are some interesting articles:

Some things you should know about your credit card--
Credit/Debit Cards

Stupid Police article--
NYPD

fight for your right.

It happens all the time, and each one of us that hasn't experienced it will eventually come across it. Either you will be a victim, or you'll observe others be the victim; it hurts either way -- Losing something (whether it be a grand opportunity, or some material thing) to those wiling to do anything for the sake of their own advance.

I have been so proud of myself lately because although I might be too passive at times -- I'm really working on it -- I DO know when I should be rewarded of great work. I fight for myself all the time because I know ultimately no one else is going to do it for me.

(Side note:) Relying on any partner to do the dirty work for your is not the best idea. In any relationship, either party can leave the other at any time. Relationships come and go. **Man I have a lot of ideas running through my head.

Back to my point: Dog-eat-dog world out there. I fought for this raise, I spoke up. So many times people don't speak up enough about how they really feel. They just go along with their authorities and agree on every thing they say, and the authorities take advantage. NO ONE'S GOING TO DENY ME WHAT I'M WORTH.

Then the question arises, "But what is just?" Just because you're my supervisor, my parent, my guardian, whatever . doesn't mean that I should blindly listen to what you tell me all the time. I have the mind to judge what's wrong and right, and if the person I rely on is wrong, I will not conform to that thought.

Surely, I'm not rounding up members to conform against their authorities. I'm not asking you to doubt your guardians. I'm simply asking for you to be a little more conscious. Use your head. Ask questions if you don't understand. Use your judgment!

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And I have to say, I'm proud of you.
You've got a good head on your shoulders, baby.


More later about other interesting things! :D

LOST

I have something I want to say, but with not time I'll leave you with this for now:

please, God.

I just want the strength to get through these tough times.
The economy is bad, my relationship is rocky, and living at all is so difficult these days.

These experiences are the ones I value so much because I know that I'm learning from them. It's tough, but what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. I want to be able to make it on my own if anything should go wrong.



Please, don't go.

burning bridge.

It's not a recent discovery -- I burn bridges. I always have a mouthful to say, and my words almost always get me in trouble. In fact, that's how I lost the one(s) I love. Like Tina Fey said in mean girls, "I'm a pusher."

I push people to doing the right things, saying the right words, handling things the right way, and let's face it: No one wants to be told how to do things.. or realize that the way they'd been doing it has been deemed wrong by me. I mean, who am I to dictate to others what they SHOULD be doing.

I've always done the right thing. Sure, I've made my share of (REALLY BAD) mistakes. Everyone has. Everyone will if they haven't. It's the only way we learn. The human brain learns the majority of things through experience, and I believe that I've experienced enough to know a lot about handling certain occurrences. So, I apologize if you'd ever been one I made my mistake on, but I always try my best to fix things. I make up for it.

Here's my apology.

I am sorry for knowing too much about life, and sharing it with you.

Cheers.

ka-ching! $__$

1. RAISE. Today is a special day -- one I'd like to remember forever. I received my first increase in salary, and I can finally celebrate something (after having lost my phone/got it stolen, and all the financial troubles). I'm truly proud of myself. As an young adult (who's female who needs to ask for a raise to get it), I've learned that there are things to overcome, and some things you deserve aren't handed to you freely. Instead you must fight for yourself, the things you're passionate about.

The hardest part of it all was asking, but sometimes without asking, we wouldn't receive, and I -- I really needed this. I was totally deserving of an increased salary with all the work i do here << could be a joke, but when the volume of work increases, I bust my a** off for USC.

2. PHONE. My phone was stolen two nights ago. I have no clue who took it, or why anyone would want to do that to me in the first place especially because the only people there that night were my "friends". I haven't been able to sleep for the past few days because I find it a little disturbing. On the surface, I find it a little strange that out of all the purses in Justin's car the time it was broken into, my purse was taken, out of all the items in the pool room that night, mine was tampered with, why my wallets are stolen from me constantly, why everything of mine is taken from me. It seems a little strange and bizarre. I wonder...

I just find it disturbing. The only people there the night it was taken from me were people I thought I could trust. I looked for my phone knowing that I would eventually find it. It was in that room with me, and I didn't take it out. I looked and looked. I took the seats apart, I checked all the drawers and cabinets. I looked over the entire room twice thoroughly. So the only thing left to conclude -- and it hurts so much to say this -- is that one of my "friends" took it from me, or hid it from me.

What gave it away: cell phone was fully charged the night before, but it was off -- I never have it off; it's not in the room. I did not remove it from that room and Julian reassured me that it WAS in there. So how does something that big disappear? Well, someone probably took it. 1. It hurts if it's true, because why me? Am I that bad of a person that you felt you had to take my treasure from me? I bought that phone with my own money. It's worth 200 dollars, and I don't have much. I give and give, but always get things taken from me too. 2. I just couldn't believe that even if you thought it wasn't my phone, you'd steal from someone's house.



Please, if you know where my phone is or know who has it, let me know. I just want my phone back. Is that too much to ask for?

3. POW WOW! A few of us went to go watch The Dark Knight last night, and it was amazing. I think it's safe to say that a few of us wouldn't' mind watching it again. Heath Ledger was amazing for the part. He acted the role so well, and it's so sad, but so grand that this is the end of his career, and he was amazing.

I guess it's time..

A few days ago, I had the urge to write about the way people treat each other -- more importantly, the way girls treat each other. I know you've all bee waiting for it because I hyped it up and made it sound so juicy. I guess the reason why I never got around to writing about it was that it was just too damn personal. That, and my passion for the subject drained itself out once I had time to think more clearly about it.


Really, I was just angry because it regarded a friend of mine that I thought had nothing to do with your lives. People are so cruel. People are so disappointing, but I still look deep down inside to find the good in people and defend even the ones that have wronged me so many times.


I just don't agree with befriending people simply for the sake of our own advance, or why many girls try to ruin others' lives because they aren't content with their own. Why is it that on the surface you portray yourselves as pure, thoughtful individuals but deep down inside you all have rotted souls. You don't care enough.


I've tried countless times to see the good in you; I started no trouble, meant no harm, and you hurt me. Still, I convinced myself that after some time, you aren't so bad. You care a lot, but only for yourselves. I tried, but you girls let me down every single time.


After two years of up-to-par friendship (of course after some of your finest sh**) and knowledge on my situation of my past relationship (which you were so sympathetic too before), I find all of you out of site. You've all taken sides when there were no sides that needed to be taken; you've deemed me some crazy b*** that ironically you HAVE been. So what's the difference about you and me? I've got room for more.


You only provoke me because you think it'd make me weak, but that action alone is a sign of weakness. I feel as though I'm stronger than you being able to turn my cheek and take the hits. Like I've said, "I have room for more (scars)." Keep 'em coming. I'll keep moving. You stay put. I'll see you later!


Just the thought of girls and the way they backstab just to get ahead seriously pisses me off. We all want to live in peace, so do it already!

fuel for thought

Here's some background. Basically, the president feels he looks bad with the high gas prices. He wants to look good before his term is over. The gas prices don't help, so he wants to lift the ban to drill offshore. Our reserve is enough to lower the prices on gas supposively.

Personally, I don't think so!

Here you go..

From CNN (about gas):

Senate Minority Leader Mitch McConnell, R-Kentucky, said "four-dollar-a-gallon gasoline is unacceptable to the American people and unacceptable to the Republicans in Congress, and we want to do something about it. And doing something about it involves both finding more and using less. We need to do both." See how gas prices have gone up across the country »

But House Speaker Nancy Pelosi, D-California, resisted the Republicans' calls for an expansion of offshore drilling, saying it would do little to reduce prices at the pump in the near term.

What the president should do immediately to lower gas prices, Pelosi said, is release oil from the 700 million barrels in the Strategic Petroleum Reserve. Bush has resisted that move because, he says, it would hurt national security.

What Justine Means.

according to Blog Things (http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz/)

Warning/Not to self: this is probably just as bad as Horoscopes -- commercialized to dictate what kind of person I am. Although I do believe that some things are fitting.

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

untitled (yet)

I have something good boiling up..
this one's a rant about girls.
STUPID girls.

I'm second.

it's not that bad is it?


I always wonder. Why do people claim you're a great person, but deem you second when it comes down to their actions. I mean if you sit back for a second and you see the way people act towards others that are "special" why do they get the special treatment. Well maybe for one, they deserve it. So why don't I?

Sometimes I feel like I'm just too selfish. I want this. I want that. I want you to notice things. I want you to want to do things with me. I want you to want. I want you to tell me what's on your mind. I want you to talk back to me. I want a response. I want it now. I want a lot from people because I feel like I deserve it, but something always comes up..

So coincidental.

friday.

I haven't been this excited in so long!
My last visit to this wonderous place was over two years ago.

It's going to be so much more special this time.
&What's great about it -- it's FREE.

<333

Throw paper.

I just discovered this which makes my days go by faster.
http://www.widro.com/throwpaper.html

Enjoy.

p.s. I want to make love<3

fumar.

I smoke more when I'm nervous about my money.
I can have ONE cigarette a day -- improvement.

Yesterday, after helping someone with a phone bill, I smoked AT LEAST 6.

I haven't wanted a cigarette at all. AT ALL. In fact, when I had that ONE and only ONE the other night, I felt sick. I didn't have an urge to smoke at all, but once financial burdens came up. WOOOSH.

I can't let it get to me.

And yes, I know the irony of it all makes you just trickle with laughter inside.

You know, Since I smoke when I'm low on cash, and smoking makes me low on cash.

i love the 20s

I also love Lucy<3



I'm in love with the 20s, 40s and 50s

blow it up.

This past weekend probably involved the most fun I've had in a while. There was something to do every day this weekend! And I don't know why but I get off to fireworks. hahaha. I love lighting them?<3 Firecrackers and roman candles and bees. :]

Friday night was fun at the Santa Monica Pier. Debbie bought us our tickets to ride unlimitedly that night. So much fun. Dragon ride and bumper cars and lame (but scary) ferris wheel. This was all followed by a 2 hour wait at pinks. not to mention baaaaaaad allergies. Boo. But in the end -- in conclusion -- things get better once you've got that juicy wiener in your mouth :]

Huntington yesterday. I could stop telling myself how beautiful it is at the beach. I kept snapping mental shots of images in my head as if I were taking pictures with a camera. The sunset was beautiful, the people that came were amazing. It couldn't have been better. Oh, I'm really trying hard to let the whole smoking thing just pass over. I don't want to do it anymore. I had one at the beach, but I keep telling myself that I don't need a cigarette to enjoy such a beautiful world we live in.. I just need to open my eyes.

I nearly drowned yesterday as Nancy tried warning me about the wave about to crash on us, but by the time she could say anything of course we'd already fallen victim to the it. hahaha. It was fun getting sand in our hair, ears, eyes and mouth. I felt free though. Even though my hair was messy, my skin was itchy, i felt as if i looked my shittiest, i actually liked it. It made me feel good to just be my true self in the midst of all nature. then..


Food and more food, and friends and love afterwards at Jase's. It's been great.

cheers to a great summer so far.