the process

Healing processes are never pleasant.
I'm going to miss my beautiful grandmother very much.

Here's the final product of my speech:

Ever since I heard about the news about Granny, I've been at a loss for words. When I woke up that Tuesday morning, I was speechless, and my heart sank. For the past week, I've tried and tried to concoct some meaningful tid bit about her, but nothing came to mind. I literally sat with my pen and paper -- nothing. It's surprising, I would think I'd have a lot to say about her. Instead, I had nothing to say about someone who always had something to say. Maybe it was just too difficult to sum up her grand, bursting personality in one short speech. I find it easier to just speak directly to her, rather than trying to tell you stories of my experiences with her..

Granny, I just want you to know how much I miss you -- we all do. I'm truly blessed to have had you as my grandmother. The impact you left on us should inspire and motivate us to have as great of a life as you did. You always had a story to tell about your travels or about what you'd accomplished or who you'd come across. If there's something I learned from you, it's to pass on the cheerfulness and the joy that you've given me. You gave, even when there was no more to give -- you always found a way. And your dazzling character was so contagious and loved by all people. You've touched us all and life will definitely never be the same without you because you were the life, and now without you, life seems so mundane and boring.

I'm truly sad that you're gone now -- we all are, but I'm glad to have been able to have lived in the same lifetime as you. I'm blessed to have had a grandmother like you who was so supportive and so caring. You were the strength I didn't have and together we made a great team. Maybe that's why I acquired the name "little granny" which means you'll always be a part of me, and I'll do my best to make you proud. In your own words, "Happy times are here because I'm with my family again." I'm glad that you're happy, and we'll continue to do our best to make you happy and proud of each and everyone of us.

I love you Granny; I'll see you soon enough.

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She was seriously the most supportive in my decisions, and she was the strength that I didn't have.

Pictures of the service will be up soon :]