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I'm a little frustrated about my finances.
I haven't been spending on things I don't need really.
My budgeting skills have improved relatively to my not going out so much, but finals really screwed me over (since I didn't work), and I'm struggling to get through the week.

The next paycheck should be fatty, so I can't wait so I can pay off some dues and enjoy my summer a little more.

It's hard to take the hits early. I would love to so easily drop out of college, and get a job that constantly pays me, but I know that just being in school right now will ensure a job for me in the future -- not just a dead-end job, but a career. It just seems so long from now. The scary thing is that it's not so far away..

Life is so expensive now-a-days. It's impossible to get around if you can't pay for your own gas. Of course parents could just pay for everything, but my parents aren't made out of cash. My dad's been out of work for almost a year, and my mom's the only one bringing in some dough. FIVE KIDS! They can't afford it, so I have to help myself and help the family. All of us do, but it's so difficult working and going to school. I can only do one thing at a time.

I must remind myself that I'm doing well. I should really just be glad that I'm doing well and that my debts aren't crushing me, but it's got a good hold on me. I just want to be relieved already.

It's going to happen.