I'm Tired.

First off, I'm still hung over from last night.
But I'm proud of myself for still coming to class.

Physically, I'm weak. My headache and stomach ache is gone, but I feel so crappy.

Spiritually, I'm tired too.
I feel like I've been walking for miles now.
I've been crawling, galloping, walking, running, and everything in between for about 21 years now. The past year, I'd gotten tired and shot down so many times, but knew that the road doesn't end.. it hasn't ended. And I know it's not going to end for another couple decades. Everything I find on this road that I'm taking, I pick up, clean up. I really try my best to get through these obstacles I encounter. I think it's safe to say I've been good about that.

If you've seen Big Fish, you probably remember the part where the protagonist, Ewan McGregor's character, takes a different route to that village (I forget it's name). He takes the more dangerous route knowing that the outcome is always better in the end. No matter what comes out of this route, Edward Bloom (Ewan McGregor) doesn't stop. He continues his journey -- doesn't let anything get in the way. As he exemplified, it's not easy, but we always have to remember to keep moving.

"Sometimes it gets to hard, but I just keep on moving."

I'd gone through so much, and I feel I've "grown up" a lot these past few weeks or months. I work really hard for the people I love and for myself. I am an honorable person, but people choose not to see that. As much as it is easy for me to say I'm a little vexed about this problem, I'm okay with it. People can try to break my faith all they want, but I won't give in. I know that I've done so much already, and you can't take that away from me.

Yes, I deserve some dignity.
I deserve better treatment, and it hurts. It really does to know that my efforts go unnoticed, but what does it matter when those who really care and know me including myself know that I've done such great things so far in my life.

Thank you for your support, those who give it.

I really appreciate it, and I'll try my best never to take that for granted.
I've been really blessed to have relations with you ;p

haha.

what are we 12?!

I really mean it though. I love you guys.