Tip the scale.

The law of attraction says that like attracts like.
For the past month or two, I'd lost faith in my friends.
"How can one little girl put a huge crack in the window?!"
I'm only one person that does what I can for not just ONE of my friends, but for all; yet you all make me feel as thought I have NONE of you to lend a shoulder for me to cry on.

I felt like this for the past few months mainly because I feel that my main support had often been too busy to keep me company. I looked elsewhere. Nothing. No one. A positive mind turned negative I'd become a "crazy" person. Often in the tales I'd read in my Asian American literature class, women who often spoke out and said what they believed in, their opinions, etc were crazy. Sometimes I think of things not often though of and believe myself to be crazy.

Then I destroy the person I became dependent on. I destroyed their confidence and faith. I'm a failure.

You see, it's all a slippery slope. Like unhappy thoughts will follow other negative thoughts. That's what I'd been exemplifying the past month and a half of my life. I need help to tip the scales back. I can't wait to be that positive, enthusiastic, helpful person I believe I am :]]]



I'm ready for a challenge.
I may be small, but I can charge hard.
and I'm going to push back, and be happy.
fuck this bullshit.