Monday, March 30, 2009

No Easy Way



If there's one thing I've learned, it's that there is no easy way out of any situation. Since we believe that we are called for something great in our lives -- to make a difference in our lives and the lives of other people -- I think we usually jump the gun on ourselves. A lot of times I find myself wanting to better myself by finding instant results in the things that I do or want to do. I want to fly to Europe and forget about my life in LA; I want to move to Canada where it's cheaper; I want to get a cheap ass bucket for transportation even if it sucks; I want to quit smoking NOW. Fast. Pronto.

I've openly stated that I want to quit smoking for many reasons. The reasons that I have are good: be healthy; take care of the body God gave me; prevent myself from a higher chance of stroke and cancer. Granted it's not something that I've really put unimaginable efforts to accomplish, but I know that it's something I would like to do soon. Conveniently, my doctor had the perfect solution: Chantix. It's pretty much a drug that ultimately alters the brain; it psyches the brain out to the pre-smoking stages. Chantix (whose chemical name is varenicline) is a stand-alone quitting aid that doesn't call for support. Of course the first thing on my mind was "Great, something that's going to help me without me having to put in any effort." Frankly, I thought wrong. There's really no instant way to fix something that is "spiritual." And there's no way I should look for instant gratification in something that could potentially cause psychological, mental, and sensory problems -- not to mention hallucinating, having vivid dreams and nightmares, and potentially depression; the list goes on.

I know that this is something really specific, and I'm aware that not all people can relate to this "problem" and draw to the broader theme which is "there is no easy way out," but this is only one example.

Everyone has the potential of being someone, but what steps do we have to take? what moves do we have to make in order to accomplish that one thing we aspire for, and do we have to compromise a part of ourselves to successfully reach the goals we have?

Life needs to be worked out. We must constantly create an effort to reach our goals and expectations. There is so much time we have to utilize, but the realization and pressure of saying "life is short" continues to scare us making us want prompt and immediate results. There is no such thing as gaining something without working for it. If it's worth having, it's worth working for it. Such is life.

a letter to anonymous

I like the mystery that you have created for me. While I might not be able to engage you in my writing, I find you very interesting, and I hope that you will accept my apology for not being able to arrest your fascination.

A few things..

I have been working on so many things lately. Some of these things include: working on my new monitor/laptop connection, rearranging my room, helping my sister with her science project, selling some shoes, working on papers and my own projects for school, and helping Soch with his car, and other duties that just happen to land in my lap so to say.

In fact I felt the need to clean up my blog too. I'm actually in the process still because I took a break to eat at Round Table. LOL. This time I made sure not to order the regular which always left us with WAY TOO MANY LEFT OVERS. Ew.

If you're interested I've got some pictures of my new desk set up -- temporary until I get a computer. The best part: it all cost less than 30 dollars. Oh, and check out my BA's. Let people know that if they're down for camo and wear a size 7-8 Woman's shoe, I have got the answer.

Enjoy.






Saturday, March 28, 2009

Tetris room.

I have been trying to fix the puzzle which IS my room. It is oddly structured and hard to work with, but I think I've tetrissed my room enough that everything fits -- maybe not perfectly, but nicely enough.









Here are some pictures of the progress.. mostly the progress of phase 2 of Tetris home.

Also, if you didn't notice the last picture, I have a monitor on my desk -- last night acted as the prelude to a wonderful NEW project. I'll esplain later (those of you who watch I Love Lucy will get that reference. :]

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Let's rave.


about Lee's
1. It's my last name
2. It has free wi-fi
3. I don't feel weird when I'm sitting in one
4. Their menu of french baguettes are my favorite
5. I finally tried a Vietnamese sandwich with EVERYTHING in it and loved it
6. Did I mention free wi-fi

I went to Panera Bread -- my favorite place study because of the music, the atmosphere, and the delicious food. I booked it from there within minutes because I just felt out of my element. It wasn't the same (the one I went to). It was extremely busy, noisy, and worst of all, I felt like everyone was staring at me. It was the one in Irvine right on the border of UCI. Boy, that was an experience. I'm so glad I ran out and drove around for a bit because I drove by a Lee's Sandwiches and remembered that they usually offer a very open area to think, study and just relax..

I still have half a pickle and left overs for later YAY.

Friday, February 20, 2009

meowmeow

I've babysat before, but tomorrow starts my first day on an actual permanent babysitting job. The kids are adorable too.. I'll let you know how that goes. Until then, I've been pretty motivated to save as much money as I can. For valentine's day, I worked my ass off to make $150. Any side jobs I can get, I will take (besides prostitution).

So now, I'll be working 3 jobs AND 16units at school. I feel like superwoman.
My name is Justine. I'm a student, teacher, office assistant, baby sitter, and go-getter. HOLLA!