SNORLAX

It's been a while since I wrote anything or even jotted any thoughts down on paper for that matter. I don't even think I think about much anymore. What I mean is I feel as though I wake up in the morning to look forward to SO MUCH: video games for about an hour, work, and video games again (if it's not beer pong or dinner with a friend). Sure it sounds like the life doesn't it? Don't get me wrong, it's fun. It really is. But for how much longer?

Did I go to school to acquire these nasty loans just to sit around and watch it devour me? HA. I'm being over dramatic. I used to really be that way..

Honestly, I used to want more, and I still do to some extent, but I'm living "okay" -- that's what I have to remember. I always wanted more out of life too soon. I always complained that I couldn't squeeze every drop out of the wring of life because I knew it was still soaking wet from the falls I'd taken. But all that.. it gets you too worked up about nothing. It gets you miserable, negative, unhappy.

Life could be 10xs worse or something, and I'm happy with what I have. I just need to remind myself that I could push push push! And as long as I am happy with the consequences of my choices -- good or bad -- I can live with the decisions I've made.