Living or Existing?

It's either time or money -- not money &time.

I have been working 2.5 jobs to pay the bills. My social life has depleted. Someone asked me why I don't go out to make some friends: I don't have the time. I build contacts. I network, but I can't sit down to gossip about celebrities or whatever it is people do these days.

This is good, but I think it's also bad.

I booked a vacation just for myself. JUST for Myself. I am really scared to travel alone, but I think I need to get away and reset. I'm becoming a robot.


On another note: (and you all definitely will not know what I'm talking about -- it doesn't concern you) I am waiting.. I'm waiting. I want to take matters into my own hands, but the reality is that I think it's actually out of my hands at this point. I'm just waiting for my time with you to come to end.

I am definitely existing.