Living or Existing?

It's either time or money -- not money &time.

I have been working 2.5 jobs to pay the bills. My social life has depleted. Someone asked me why I don't go out to make some friends: I don't have the time. I build contacts. I network, but I can't sit down to gossip about celebrities or whatever it is people do these days.

This is good, but I think it's also bad.

I booked a vacation just for myself. JUST for Myself. I am really scared to travel alone, but I think I need to get away and reset. I'm becoming a robot.


On another note: (and you all definitely will not know what I'm talking about -- it doesn't concern you) I am waiting.. I'm waiting. I want to take matters into my own hands, but the reality is that I think it's actually out of my hands at this point. I'm just waiting for my time with you to come to end.

I am definitely existing.

I've got to push harder

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A Few Visitors

David &Yetta Kane.
I was truly honored to have been visited by survivors of the Holocaust, David and Yetta Kane. It was in my Music and the Holocaust class that they came to visit me and my peers. There were 5 of us, and it was the two of them. It was so amazing to have that intimacy.

Their experience was so unique. The couple described how they suffered through torturous treatment and unbearable living conditions, from the beginning of the war in 1939 until it ended in 1945. The two also spoke about their lives after the war, when they came to the United States, met each other, married and lived a successful life together, raising their three children and enjoying their six grandchildren. It was a beautiful experience -- so touching.

If you've seen the film Defiance, that pretty much sums up Yetta's life -- but there was so much more that she endured that the film doesn't cover.

The couple taught us to love &the importance of forgiveness.

I'm all over the place with this post, but JEEZ Yetta came here to America in 1949, didn't know any English, and she landed a job doing some fashion. She made $100 a week! CRAZYYYY... It just really demonstrates their will to live..


The two have been married 114 years now, according to David -- 57 for David and 57 for Yetta. He was so sweet. God Bless the Kane family.



Serj Tankian.
Singer of System of a Down's Serj came to visit our class -- another intimate little Q&A about genocide since his grandparents were victims to the Armenian Genocide.
I know it's totally different from the Kane's visit. He actually looks so different in this photo! Of course, the band days are over so he came in very clean cut. He was very handsome. *sigh. And he does amazing work.. everything he does matters. Another lesson learned here: stay active, keep pushing, do what you love.

I'm really blessed to have met with these fine people.

In the Palm of my Hand

Palm has impressed me yet again. I am in love with this sucker. It's a blackberry, iphone, and palm COMBO. Love it. Rumor has it, it drops on the 17th.

Mental Note

Missed it by a day. Oh, watch out, Next Season.

The Bob

I got a haircut today that I think is the cutest. I feel like a kid again, but I don't want to look like a kid. I'm trying to make it work for me. HAHA. I really adore it. Yeahhh I went short AGAIN. NO really short. My hair was just getting too retarded, so off with it. :]

It was nice seeing familiar faces last night -- people I haven't seen in a while: Justin, Kris, Martin. The L&O hats are lookin siiiick.

Melo

Melo used her hammock for the first time today. Very cool. I'm proud of her. :D

Model Teacher

Michelle Babin. She had all the kids in my class going crazy today. For all of you who watch America's Next Top Model, this is for you. Haha. I actually don't keep up with it so I don't know her too well, but I got to talk to her for a bit. She was actually pretty cool. She's teaching after school like me for THINK Together!

Everyone got an autograph; I didn't feel right getting one since I almost didn't know who she was (until my class told me in which case, I'd talked to her like she was just like one of us -- which she is, but you know).

It was really entertaining actually.

Trip don't fall.

I'm purchasing bus tickets for a trip to Texas. I'm excited! This will be my first road trip (on a bus) minus the one Debbie, Scott, Natalie, Ramiro and I went on to Arizona. Oh, this one will be much longer. I'm not excited for the drive really, just the site seeing. We'll be in the bus for 1 day and 50 minutes! Gross. I'm already getting sick just thinking about it, but this will be exciting nonetheless. HAHA.

Dallas and Abilene, here we come.

a few things.

1. I now how 2 new friends -- Jazz and Melo (short for Melody). It's so funny because together they make a Jazz Melody. I didn't even think of that! I call them friends because when I went to get Melo, the Petco associate, Suzan asked: Is she Food or Friend? Odd question. I know, but without hesitance I said "Friend!"

2. I am finally done with school. The next two weeks are final weeks, but luckily, all my finals were cancelled with the exception of 1 -- art history. My Music and Holocaust class final is being substituted for a talk on genocide with focus on Armenian Genocide and the Holocaust with Serj Tankian from System of a Down. Awesome.

3. It's almost summer, and because I hadn't had much time to go to the gym, I STILL don't have my summer body. HAHA. That's okay. Starting today, I'm going to the gym religiously in hopes to lose 20lbs -- the weight I gained back the past two years. One step at a time.

4. I decided not to look for another job, and to stay with USC for a few more months just until I graduate. I can't afford taking time out of my schedule to drive and have limited availability with I need money the most.

5. I'm thinking about taking a short vacation to visit Soch's family and my family in Texas. It would be nice considering I've never travelled outside of this state besides going to Las Vegas.

That's all that comes to mind at the moment. I have been way too busy to sit down and write a nice, long, juicy entry so bear with me. I'll update soon.

Oh and
6. I love melee moves on zombies. I imagine I am Zoey from Left4Dead because I always end up being the last to choose.. and I think about killing zombies for days. I love it, but I love being an infected! Boomer is the best. I hate being Hunter -- I die too easily. Jenn Mac, you know what I'm talking about!