two points.

+1 If we didn't have to account for everyone's feelings, life would be much easier. Peoples' feelings do get hurt, and we all betray someone at some point in our lives. Mostly this happens at a younger age, but that doesn't stop us from making the wrong choices later on in life.

It hurt at first to know that I hurt you. Yes people get mad, but why should we all stay mad? Life's too short to be an angry fool the rest of your life. What beauty will you see if you're always mad? Now, I know things will be fine. Discovering that you hurt a good friend -- BAD.

This can be applied to two instances in my life so generally, I'm speaking on behalf of them both. It's never a good thing to hurt someone, but if they want to stay in that moment, if they want to hate me for the rest of their lives, if they want to have something affect them for the rest of their adult life, I'm moving on.

I've done what I can, and if I focus on your needs all the time, I'd be stuck with you, with you not letting me in. Where would we be heading? NO WHERE.

Keep moving. No regrets. Learn. (don't) REPEAT.



+2 I wish I was stronger/tougher. I wish I wasn't such a sucker. I wish I was an asshole sometimes. And while these things sound so negative, I'm so overwhelmed with feeling that I imagine if I was a stronger asshole bitch-woman life would be so much easier. I wouldn't care too much about anyone -- not a thing.

Sometimes I care too much, and I could work on it. Actually, I have. I've been doing great the past couple months. Then I start to care again, and I know that we'll go through the same cycle. Who wants that for either one of us?

Please understand that life should be laughed at, a joke sometimes. It's supposed to be taken lighter than we take it, or our lives would be long lives of suffering. We'd be searching for answers we'd never get. There'd be tons of "What ifs.."

We don't need what ifs to complicate our lives further. Things are great, but I know sometimes I'll need help..

I'm glad you're doing good
I think at this point we both know.. we can't be friends.






RUDIGER couldn't have said it better:
"Who I am seems unclear
The strength I thought I had is not drying these tears
Keep on falling down, my mind screaming out
For something to bring back all the peace I once felt�

So secure, so content
I can be there again soon if I just�

Remember who I am, not who I was
Remember where I'm going, not where I came from

Who am I now?
What will become of this?
When will this storm pass?
Where is the bright side to be looked on?
Why do I feel like my mind is a prisoner for countless crimes?
I need to be bailed out. Someone help me�"