It's been a while...

since I blogged last, hung out, etc.


I feel like I'm loooong due for one.
Having not written in a while, I'd suspect that this entry might be long, but I've been at a loss for words. I don't feel I have enough energy anymore to get riled up about the things that are "wrong" in my life.

I'm just relieved, really.
School's out, grades in, I'm fixing my relationships, everything's good, but one thing is killing me.

I wish I could just squash that ONE THING.
but, it's not up to me.
It really shouldn't be that big of a deal.


I know i'm probably bouncing around everywhere with this entry. Again, I just don't know where to start.






SOMETHING THAT SCARES ME:
MORENO VALLEY, Calif. — The National Weather Service has issued a tornado warning for parts of Southern California as the region is being pounded by wild weather including torrential downpours.

The weather service said at 4:38 p.m. Thursday that Doppler radar was tracking a tornado moving south near Moreno Valley in Riverside County.

A KABC-TV helicopter in the area has shown an overturned big rig blocking a highway and a half-dozen freight cars toppled over on nearby railroad tracks.


What the hell?!
NOTHING EVER HAPPENS TO US!
but then again, we're due for a good one.
earthquake and tornadoes..

how exciting.




im just realizing how hypocritical everything is. we all strive either to prove we are not hypocritical, or we just don't give a fuck and say, "everyone's a hypocrite." Why do you say that? Is it because you're just lazy, and maybe you don't want to try to strive being better? Or is it because it's real. It's true. I really think it's true, but I still strive to be a better person.

It's not entirely bad to be hypocritical.. In fact, there's just no way to run away from it.

Example anyone? Well, friend1 says they can't trust you because you told your best friend (friend2) a secret you shouldn't have told about friend1. Friend1 disownes you, says they can't trust you. What makes friend1 think they can trust friend2 if friend2 promised ME they wouldn't say anything?

So, you stay friends with them cause they're on your side. That's all -- it's all about you isn't it? Selfish a-hole. What about me? Should I disown friend2? Wouldn't that be fair? and if i did that, and we continued that chain, who'd really have friends?!

Yeah..
Cheers to summer.

I'll see you guys around.